It's the time of morning where people on a hard night out are stumbling to a conclusion, taxi's do the rounds, the crazies linger.

And then you have me, awake with the monitor illuminating on my face.

I rather value my melancholy. It used to be a personality trait one was allowed to have. Like Abraham Lincoln or Lord Byron. Now one is required to grin and say things like, “Chipper!”

I feel a little numb without it or at least while I'm supressing it. And when I let it show its face, I get the constant nagging comfort people try and blanket me with - as though I a little flicker on my cosine life would cause me to flatline.

4am is a time in the morning where melancholy makes me feel a little bit more real.

Was what came up when I went to restore a saved post. But I don't remember being broken, so I must have been ok. I guess.

Today, I turned 23.

I used to be organised, methodical and perfectly in time.

These days I am a whirlwind mess with colours of all tones, flow with the punches and always a little early or late.

I might be a little broken, but turned out alright!

Feeling a little melancholy. And that's ok :)

Taken with the Lumix because that's the only way I can look good these days - a billion instantaneous photos to get the "right" shot. I think it stole a bit of my soul and left me looking featureless, characterless and ~less in general

Anyhow - an update;

• Currently addicted to vegemite and avocado on toast + smokey bbq chilli sauce + bbq pork ribs
• Uni wise - A little lazy (why am I not suprised)
• Work wise - my only complaints is my tiny office has a dedicated aircon vent which freezes me wickedly.
• B&K wise - we broke up :(
• Being a nong wise - we didn't break up! :P I was just being a nong

Yea, pretty boring - I don't know why I bothered.

I think people who read up about socializing and make notes about it should learn that making friends isn't going to happen if they feel the need to put others down to make themselves relevant.

I'm sorry, a bit of neg post after saying I am trying to keep things diet-anger.

But how would you feel if someone you barely knew decided to walk all over you by insulting what you do in life? It's the fact that they barely know you that makes you wonder why they being just out-right mean. I don't understand why people can be so uncalled for. I really don't understand.

I'm a little upset, yes..I'm trying not to let it get to me. I just want to understand why though..?

This was an accident shot - I thought the camera was broken and gave it to Ben to fix. The shutter snapped and gave me a beautiful mistake.

This roll of film was actually slide film which was cross processed through a standard C-41 machine. What usually happens with cross processing is that the neg because grainy, contrasty and they colours burst...depending on your camera settings though. If you are correctly exposed there will be only a slight cross processing effect. If you don't have enough light, something awesome happens in the film emulsion when it hits the "wrong" chemicals of the C-41 machine and turns the colours completely off. Usually it will turn the main primary colour to a secondary colour. Which is also a nice effect.

There are those out there that spend hours digitally manipulating their digital shots to get the x-pro effect. Then there are those who think that they colours are too off. And then you get people like me who appreciate the flaws and magic of film.

Decided to resurrect this journal. I think I've changed a bit since I first made this. I wanted to make this a little more light hearted, be a little more aware of readers and just a whole lot more casual. Cynical and serious~ness made me into a floosy which is not the person I am. I'm not really on a venture to reinvent myself, I'm more interested in enjoying life more rather than getting stuck wallowing in misery and not being able to move on.

So, in a very familiar tone of lists of what I want to do these days;

• Develop my own style of photography - I want someone to be able to look at my stream and recognise they're mine without having to check for my profile name. Some people say that it's comforming to try and have a constant styles but I think you can still have your own distinctness while have a wide range of different oriented shots. We'll see I guess.
• Spent more time blogging about food - detailed blogging that is. It's easy for me to just say "I ate this and that" or "I cooked this and that". I want to be a little more critical when cooking and trying new foods. And of course, I want more pictures to go with.
• Start drawing - a good friend of mine who is heavily involved movement of fine arts in Perth told me the only way to draw well is to practise. I usually give up after failed scribbles and I guess that's the reason why I've never gotten any better. Consistancy isn't my forte is seems. Let's try though ^_^
• Explore different music artists - I used to do this a lot. Spending Sunday mornings at 5am finding a gem of a song and then trying to download the rest of that particular artists albums was always quite enjoyable for me. I'm going to scrobble everything to keep track of my music taste too.

So, to end this post off, I'd like to invite any readers to say a quick "hi"! Anything will do :)

Testing out Ping.fm, finally!

Death Cab for Cutie is coming to Australia ftw!!!!




That is all.

It's been a while.

Things are great.

I blog on my vox more, however I still like my lj. It's just that I don't have many emo things to write about here lately. Which is a good thing I suppose.

If you could wrap this post up and put it in your mouth to chew and swallow, it would taste like try paper towel.